A-teen

11/22/94

          Happy 18th birthday to me! It's been 18 years since God has given me the chance to live here on earth. YAY!!! This life is a roller coaster ride. There had been ups and downs. Rough roads and all. And I am very blessed and happy that God has given me wonderful people to take care of me. My Dad and mom, My Ako-neng and her family, Wilbur and his family, My sister Joyce, and my friends. THANK YOU LORD! 

         I just can't thank my Heavenly Father enough for giving my a wonderful earthly father and mother and family. No, my family is not perfect, in fact it is far from perfect, but it is just the right fit for me..

            So here, I just want to narrate to what happened to me the whole day. I just thought that maybe someday, I might want to read this blog again. And I know I will. Sooo... Here it goes ....

              I woke up at around five in the morning, because we had our swimming practice. Then, I want to my dad's place, I had lunch there, I was very simple. I ate spaghetti and surf the net. Since my class starts at 12 noon. So yeah.. I arrived school late, because I didn't notice the time. And my classmates didn't have idea that it is my birthday. And I don't want to let them know that it was really my birthday. It wasn't really a big deal for me. And for me, my birthday is like an ordinary day. I just don't want to  exaggerate it. So only Alberto and Mitzi know that it's my birthday, they greeted me in the morning through text. So yeah.. Im tamad na to tell you the whole thing during the day, because it was super boring. I mean nothing really happened e. Tapos, since my dad said na he is going to prepare daw a handa for me since I didn't want to celebrate. Maghanda nalang daw sya ng dinner for the family. So ayon, it was around 7:30pm na when I arrived at my dad's place. and everyone was hungry na. So quickly, I changed my clothes, tapos I blowed the candle na after. Tapos, Ayon we ate na! Tapos Wilbur came! It was sort of awkward at first because we already broke up. And my dad knew that, pero he was welcoming naman, although harsh at first, because of the hot sauce! ^^ Pero okay naman. Tapos I received a bouquet pala, wit 18 roses. Ang cool. I wasn't expecting it at all! Ayon. Tapos, I ate alot of sarap food. tapos ayon family bonding with akoneng and tito junie and with some of papa's friends. Tapos when they all left, and ate Em was busy fixing or doing something in the kitchen, it was just me, Joyce, Wilbur, Gavin, and Papa. Then the talk began. It was so amazing, I was so shocked when papa started to open up and I think he felt comfortable with Wilbur. Ayon, masaya lang ako. It was a very long and relaxed conversation. Masaya. Everything ended happy. Then tito william came to fetch Wilbur na. And it was time to go home na. Ayon. The end. 

             So, That was it! As simple as that! My eighteenth birthday. Great things happen when you least expect it! And when it happens, BE CONTENTED! Just like me, the night was so so so simple. The food was home made, and trust me, it tasted super sarap! The cake was simple, they bought it from Myrna's bake shop. Again, IT WAS MASARAP! The set up was simple. Everything was simple, what made it special are the people who you shared with on that special moment. It's sad nga because my mom wasn't there. Pero she's in my heart naman. Ayon, I just wished everything was well with her and papa para complete. but yuh, okay na yon. I am contented. And I am very happy. 


            I end this day with a thought that, God loves me and He cares for me. That's why He gave me my mom and dad and my family and friends. :) I just LOVEEE THEM! Here are some pictures!

This is the rest of the family + Wilbur. He is also part of my family! 

This is my Ako-neng.
I LOVE HER SO MUCH!
Thank you for everything Akoneng! 

It's Gavin and Ahya Wilbur.
This guys really made me smile! and saya lng. :)
Ang cute nilang tingnan! :))
(Playing sila with Ahya's iphone, marunong si sir gavin!)

And this is my super pogi na papa! 

I love him! Sobra. 

Thank you papa for being a good father! 

I can never thank you enough! 

(By the way, The picture on the right side was taken during the rainbow conferral)

I AM OFFICIALLY A LADY, Haha! On the other side, I wont grow taller na. @@ Sana makahabol pa! HAHA! 

This is another chapter in my life, and I thank God for never leaving me. 

I am looking forward to a fruitful happy life. And yes, I will still commit mistakes, but I will always learn a lesson from them. I wont promise a perfect life, but I will make this life worth it! I will be strong, with the help of God. Nothing is impossible! AMEN! 

PS: Thank you to everyone who greeted me! My Churchmates, Family, Friends, Rainbow family, DeMolay Family, Schoolmates, FANS(Char). Basta! Thank you! And May God bless you all! 

*MissMarjj at 18 ^^

Ciao!

This is soooo..

LIFE IS A CONSTANT CHANGE! 

 It's been super crazy lately. I... I don't know what is happening anymore. As in LOST! @@ Second semester na, there are so many changes. Super busy na nga ngayon e.  And I forgot to blog about being a RAINBOW GIRL nga e! YAY! (but I’ll post a photo of me during the installation) OKAAAY! Going back to the topic, everything is a mess! I am a big mess. I just have to put myself together! I have to be really strong.

Here's the sitch,  I cant tell you the whole story here, but .. 

Ang daming kong problema lately e. @@ Ayaw ko naman mag drama dito but, everything is falling apart e! @@ I am so bothered. @@ Just the other night, I received a threat. Somebody texted me and the used my middle name to identify if it is really me. This is so.. @@ That anonymous sender said a lot of things about my life and all, and he also said that he knows me blab la bla.. @@ As in. @@ I felt a bit scared baaaa. But, I am not shaken naman. I can handle it. PEROOO!! @@ Wala lng, I am just super bothered. I also told my mom. She said that I shouldn’t mind it nalang daw. “Mga walang magawa sa buhay” my mom said. Haaayyy. I never mentioned it to my dad. @@ I just don’t feel like it’s the time to say it. What really hit me the most is that, when the anon said “More surprises on your birthday. HAHA.” And I was like. WTF! How did this guy know that it is almost my birthday. @@ Senyoooor! @@ Ughh, it comes in my mind every now and then, but I just let it pass. I don’t want to think about it that much. It’s just that, UGH! I can’t explain this feeling. Knowing that there’s nobody beside you to help you or comfort you. I just feel soooooo isolated from everyone right now. I feel like people see me as a strong happy kid, and I don’t face problems. But inside, I am falling apart. Where are they when I need them the most? The only one that keeps me up is God. Even if I had been always busy, even if I sometimes don’t have time for him anymore, he is always there. And at this point in my life, I turn to him. He is my refuge and strength. I just feel that I need to pour my heart out.

WHEW! Its just soooo crazy. Im super tired. @@ As in physically, mentally, and emotionally. @@ STRESSED! My grades aren't working with me. I am bulaw. @@ I just have to focus more. College is crazy! PLUS my crazy life equals

A CRAZY ME! @@ 

Ewan, ang gulo ng utak ko ngayon. Mag 18 na pala ako. :) Hay, Expect ko nang di nanaman ako magiging masaya sa birthday ko. :) As always! I also think that I deserve this naman e. HAYY! I just have to put myself back together and be strong, even just for six months. I have to stay strong. 

I HAVE TO... 

Whew! :'(