Change

I knew that this time would come, that eventually, we'll have to let go of this. I was just too scared to face it. I was too happy to even think about it. These past years, they were the best years of my life. My life when I was with you. Thank you for bringing so much joy and color to my life. I know I can never repay you for everything you did. :( 

Today. Bllsht.

Life without you is just so hard. We could have been perfect together. I did not expect it to be this painful. I hate myself for not fighting for this. This thing we have. I know this is real. This is true. And I just hate myself for being so selfish. It's just too much to take. 

I understand that the world wouldn't always be in favor of us, of this. And sometimes, life doesn't go as planned. But I will assure you that we will always come back to each other. No matter what. I just know that forever will be possible if we just stay this way. Because I don't want to loose you for good. 

I know the pain I feel now is nothing compared to yours. I feel so sad and broken. I feel so guilty for being like this. If only I can take away the pain you're feeling right now. If only I can make everything right again. I would. But I can't. 

Letting you go is one of the hardest thing that I will ever do. 
You will always be a part of me and I will FOREVER be grateful of your love, and of what we had. I love you. 

I am so sorry. 
I am very very sorry.