Year-end blog

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Okay, as this year is about to end. I would like to really give thanks to the Lord for always being there for me. For never letting me go. This year is really really memorable, bitter sweet and all. This year taught me alot of things, it made me stronger and smarter and wiser. -.- And now, Im leaving all the bad memories behind and treasure the good ones. and as 2012 comes, I'd like to welcome it with happiness and joy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

Day - to - day Blog 5

December 16 2011

Woa, the year is about to the na pala...
Its amazing how time flies when you are enjoying. I mean for me, this year is a blast.
I learned alot of things.

This year, alot of things happened. I stumble and fall, rise up and stand tall, I laugh I cried. but one thing I know for sure is I will never forget this year. I will never ever forget what happened and what went wrong. -.- I know I will be happy but for now, I'll be strong. Maybe God has different plans for me. BETTER PLANS.

Well these are some happenings that will never be forgotten.

The Graduation March. just last MARCH.
I was happy that time and I had wilbur by my side.
I was happy because finally, the long hard work is over and now a new begging is about to unfold. COLLEGE. another years of HARDWORK.

The SUMMER 2011.
Tons of PAIN, and TONS of love.
Many paaainful and REALLY HAPPY memories.
March 29 2011 - PAIN. parang sinuntok ka sa tyan. SOBRANG SAKIT.
April 1 2011 - One hell of a day, The pain didnt totally go away, but it eased the pain I felt that time. But now, Im not sure if what happened that day was even a blessing or whatever. ><
May 15 2011. Sweetest day. We are officially in a relationship. HAPPY. Really happy.
- summer 2011.


Later this year. NOVEMBER.
Saddest month of the year EVER. and to think that its my birth month.
SADDDDDD. ><

November 1 2011 - He said he's not happy anymore. -.-
I fell down. I didnt know what to do. I will never forget that day, that night when I cried tons and tons of tears. That night, as much as i want to get over it. It'll never be erase, maybe one day, I'll read this blog again and i'll still say, im never going to forget the feeling I felt that day.Ill never forget how it felt like that night. and the following nights.. I was so DAMAGED. BROKEN.
November 22 2011 - Saddest birthday EVER. I had a normal day. did the usual stuffs. And he wasnt there at all. Not a shadow of him I saw that day. -.- It really hurts. :((
November 24 2011 - His birthday, I bought a cake and dropped it in their house. I saw him, He wanted to hug me but I refused. I didn't want to spend one more second in there because I know that any moment I will really cry. So a left right away. And we were suppose to have dinner that night. but he chose to play computer games. -.- He invted me but he eventually cut the plan. but, his mom invited me to have dinner with them, and so I came, we had a long talk, an emotional one inside car, and what we talks about that night is another thing that will never ever be forgotten.
PAINNNNN > <

and the rest was history..

DECEMBER 1 2011 - Official break up date.
I didnt really feel that bad that day because I carried that burden the whole month of November up till NOW.
I just got used to the pain. and now. it has been 16 days since we broke up. -.- Im so damage.
and I just don't know how to be happy in times like this, but somehow i'll try to be happy. I'll be happy someday. I know I will.



Now, Im trying to be strong, Im trying to be happy.
I should be happy, There's always a rainbow after the rain, right?
there's always a rising sun after a long dark night.
There will always be happiness after sorrows and pains.

Day - to - day Blog 4

ha! didn't get the chance to do my blog these past few days. busy kase e. :) owell anyways, I 've got tons of things to blogand lemme start with...

Mr. Louie Siose. He is my gay friend. We were on on way to eat dinner, e yon. he is like so maarte at ayaw kumaen sa Mcdo. soooooo, we walk all the way to the mall to eat sa jollibee. tapos, on our way there, ang kanyang slippers ay nasira! -.- ohmen! tapos ang damin tao. He said babalik daw sya sa school or somewhere to get/buy slippers :))) HAHA! sabi namen WAG na syang bumalik sa school ahaha.. ok. and then here is the NAKAKAHYANG part. nasa entrance na kame ng mall at ayaw niyang pumasok. We have to literally pull him towards the entrance. hmm!stressful tong si louie. hilain ba naman tapos di magpahila. ang biagt2x kea nea. :))))) soo, xandy our friend said sa kabilang door nlg dumaan since its easier to pass there "FOR LOUIE".:))) ok.pagdating nmen sa loob ng mall, we like entered the grocery and looked for slippers for lulu. tapos, we end up like being his sales lady. @.@ anubanamanyan!!! ang tagal pa tlg mag pick ng slippers kase MALAK an kanyang paa. -.- gosh. natuwa tlga ako that night. after that sa wakas nakapili na sya! then counter na. -.- woooh! and finally nakakain na kame ng dinner. :)))))

*realization : kung di si lulu naginarte at sa mcdo nalang kame kumain, e ndi sana ngyare un. HAHAHAHA. ang arte nmn kase ni louie! :) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Ok. Im running out of time I have to take go to school pa. -.-

later nalang ang iba ko pang ibblog!

ciao!

Not everybody will try to understand you

November 22 2011

happy birthday to me! im 17 now, im going to get my license tomorrow I guess. or on friday! WEE!

anyways, this day was like any other day. Just another ordinary day, nothing special. I did my daily routine and went home after that.

Anyways, this week is really stressful. and I realized, that, PEOPLE will never ever understand you. they won't even bother looking at your point of view. They'll judge you without even thinking. all they care is what they SAW, what the THINK is right. THINK? (if they are thinking) Peace. harsh I know but, its really like that. Admit it you guys, We all are like that. We see people happy and we talk about them, we see sad people and still talk about them, we see people who does not care, and we still talk about them. Ever notice why many people have bad reputation? and stuffs. It's because they don't care. They do whatever makes them happy. Why can't I do that?! Because im scared of what people might think. WHY?! Is it because I care about my reputation? or what?! WHY?! hay. Im just sick and tired of listening to people who doesn't even understand me. who doesn't even take time to analyze the case before saying stuffs that they dont even understand. I'm just so damn tired. Puede ba kahit minsan lang maging masaya ako? Puede ba yon? Puede ba?!?! Hindi ung nagsasalita lang kayo without even thinking about what you're saying -.-''

HAYA. basta ako. MAGSASAYA AKO!

God Bless me! :) Thanks

CIAO! ***:

Day - to - day Blog 3

November 18 2011

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That feeling when you want to be happy again. Ya know that qoute that goes "Your happiness depends on you own self." yun yon e. -.- I just don't want to feel the pain. I want to be busy, I want to be happy, meet new friends and do stuffs I like, looking at old photos and posts, makes me wanna cry, sabi ko sa sarili ko. "Sayang tlga." But instead of thinking about it, nililihis ko nlang ang pagiisip ko sa ibang bagay, like looking at the brighter side of life. Meh darating ring tao na d ka babalewalain at mamahalin ka ng tunay, yung ndi ka pagsasawaan, at ung tapat sayo. *charrr..

Anyways, moving on towards the better things in life. Today, I met new friends. acutally not new nmn.. kase ung iba friends ko na. but not really talking to them that much, meh isa nmn na naging super close ko kaagad. FC ba ito. :) anyways, kaninang afternoon was like really fun, una sa consejo. Chika with dickson, and ahya tyron, and many more. like sila keesh, and luluboy, :)) ahaha.. then we went to CHONG HUA, the school I love. dahil intrams. Ok, so medyo fun na din yon. after that. same old same old, Go to church tapos practice til 8:30. then uwi. REALLY BORING, tomorrow nmn meh NSTP na. kakapagod na.. anyways. im happy today, =)) teehee!

gotta go, sago! :)

Ciao!

Day - to - day Blog 2

November 17

hah. good morning, not a good morning actually. Why cant I get atleast 8 or 9 hours of sleep?

haaaaay! I'm doing my best to sleep early here but I also wake up early. -.- whatman! sige matutulog ako ng 9pm, tapos magigcng ako ng 4am!?! damet! 7hrs?! It's not enough. NO NO NO NO! hay nako.. nakakainis na ha. -.- This is always happening to me, as in. ALWAYS. 7hours of sleep lng tlg sanay ang body ko. -.- khit 8hrs lng masaya na ako. hmmh!

But anyways, moving on towards the better things in life, maaga ako nagcng at nakapagblog pa ako. :)) Today 7am ang class ko, kase meh PE pa eh. So yeeahh .. P.E Ang napakaimportanteng subject EVER! Physical Education. tenen! So this sem magbballroom kame, NOOOOOO... ayan so not cool. but anyways, I have no choice but to deal with it.

tinatamad na ako. I was about to post some pictures sa Limpiesa kahapon pero wala pala sakin ang picture. OKAY. sige next time!

Btw, I just wanna say, ang harsh ng ginagawa nila keh gloria. as in Dating Pangulo ng pilipinas, GLORIA MACAPAL ARROYO. :) Is it payback time already, cause I think its soooo NOT proper. And why do they stress out on this matter, while in fact there are things that needs more attention than this. e kung yung kahirapan muna kaya ng pilipinas ang unahin nla? gosh! El brain ya kay! -.- Wala lang I just wanna rant about this issue. puro yan nmn ang laman ng mga balita ngayon e. at yung RAMGEN Murder. Maybe they are just focusing on this para nmn malihis ang attention ng people. HMMH PNOY, Not good ha! Very very bad. -.- And justice secretary leila De lima. Release them na, give the person a chance to get well. We all know that doctors here are lousy. HAHA! kidding, doctors abroad are good and they have the right facilities. Am I right? kawawa nmn kase si gloria e. So please please, let them go. And oh YEA, Isa pa tong mga Media, puro yan nalang ang bukang bibig nila. nakakainis na ha. Over.

anyways, I have to bounce now -.-

ciao bell.

Day - to - day Blog 1

Halo! good morning!

Today is, November 16 2011.
30+ days before Christmas. not so excited know i'll e celebrating it ALONE again. not exactly alone. but somehow its like that. ;) But anyways, going towards the better things in life. Im going to make myself happy, AND. Cantata is fast approaching, we practice almosty EVERYDAY. -.- see how tiring is that. uh. everyday practice from 6pm to 8pm FOR NOW. but when decmeber comes, baka mga hanggang 11pm pa nga! :) owell that's okay, as long as we dont have quizes or test the following day, so yea.. today, 12pm pa ang class ko.. MANAGEMENT -.- oooooh. spoooky. HAHAHAHAHAHA! nahh just kidding we haven't met our prof yet. fingers crossed, hope ndi sya terror. Okay so wala kame Economics today also english. aun 12pm pa my class. Hopefully, our management teacher doesn't show up again para nmn relax na the whole day. #limpiesa pa pala later. its the LOYALTY DAY. DAW. So we have to clean up the whole school cause the PPO workers can't do the job alone. they NEED the students to help so yon. LOYALTY DAY. hahahah.. 1-3pm called off ang classes and we start cleaning. SAYANG kase, 3-4:30pm meh history class kame! Sheeeeez! -.- so sad pero sana our teacher doesn't show up ren. :) fingerscrossed!!!


anyways I have to go eat my lunch before my sundo arrives. :)

ciao! :**

Volunteer.

Okay. So just yesterday I volunteered to be the part of El consejo's tough30 volunteers.

Why did I do that? First reason is, I want an additional grade in chemistry, since I didn't pay much attention in this subject when I was in high school. haha! So I thought im going to need the extra point. My second reason is, I need to do something. I want to keep myself super busy. Para naman di ako laging nagiisip about him. Now, may CANTATA Practice and tough30 volunteer pa, and studies. :) YAY ME! Soo, all I have to do is go to the office when I'm bored or kapag walang pasok. db?! This events in school are really helping me alot, PLUS! I'm knowing alot of people pa! Well sa ngyon not to many, of course ganyan nmn sa simula e. But im sure it'll be alright. So tomorrow, meh LIMPIESA kame. then the following days to come, prepare na for Ateneo Fiesta! GO GO GO! ayan that's all for today,


CIAO! ;*

Im a Christian

When I say that 'I am a Christian', I am not shouting that 'I am clean living.
I'm whispering 'I was lost, but now I'm found and forgiven.'

When I say 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say 'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow!

sometimes people misinterpret my actions, its okay.

Im a christian, im weak, I stumble, fall, a sinner, failure, and many others.

and that's why I need God to mold me. And direct me to the right path.

and even if I don't know His ways, even if I dont understand His ways.

even if I sometimes or if not ALL THE TIME I disobey Him, He never fails to pick me up.

He said in the bible "for I have plans to prosper you and not to harm you."

He said "I will never forsake you nor leave you"

When everything falls apart, Who else it there for you. God right?

You just have to lean on Him, trust Him when you can't understand.

Life is FAIR?

Why did I say that? Many people would say that LIFE is unfair.

Because of some circumstances like LOVE, happiness, relationships, school, family, friends, whatever. And I cant blame them, even I myself thought that life is unfair, but I noticed just this past few days, when something happened to me. And it made me super sad, it broke heart. And at the same time, it made me think of this phrase "LIFE IS UNFAIR".

We didn't deserve God's love, Grace and anything. We didn't deserve any of those. God died in at the cross for us, but we didn't deserve that, right? Don't you think that's unfair for Jesus? and despite of Him dying for us, here we are blaming God for the miserable things that is/are happening to us.

I've been through a lot this week. I realize that when you give your love to someone you really really love, does that mean you have to get the same percentage of love as what you gave? huh? I don't think so, because once you love someone, you don't have to ask for anything in return. right? but dont you think its kind of unfair?

What about God? Is God fair?

Nothing in this world is perfect. That struct me the most.

And I think God is fair.

See, nothing is perfect.

no such thing as perfect family, perfect lovers, perfect person, etc.

Me and my boy friend, are really really ok.

His mom and dad and the whole family is very welcoming, we became kind of close already.

And my mom and him is pretty OK already, well he didn't get the chance to meet my dad yet. but my dad is pretty okay with my relationship with him. Our friends was really really very supportive. and all thought was it was perfect, but something happened, these past few days, we are not okay. and we are not happy anymore. He is not happy anymore, so its kind of "MALABO NA". and I dont know what to do anymore. I loved him so much. but, as you can see nothing is perfect. and I thought its fair. God is fain, but life is not? does that make sense? huh -- ciao!

WRONG!

HOLLA! marjj here. i'm going to write something about what I feel these day, what I think and what goes in and out of my mind. :) it's been awhile since I wrote a blog in here. So here it goes.

So these days for me are like super duper emotional. Sometimes, I just can't help but cry. that feeling when someone you love takes you for granted. It hurts, but the thing is, he does not realize it. He thinks its OK. eerr.. maybe he got used to it. Me being so patient, I don't say much, I forget easily, I don't get mad to long. Maybe he thought it was all fine. But for me, its not. im hurting. @@ I just don't show it.

Next, my friends. COLLEGE IS CRAZY. I dont usually mingle with my block mates. I'm friends with them but It's really hard to make new friends especially when your not in the mood, I mean when your not in comfort zone, I think i'm scared. @@ I feel like im not wanted in a group. I don't know what wrong with me. Lately, I realize that i'v not been making alot of friends in college. @@

In short, somethings really wrong with me, emotionally, mentally?, spiritually. I don't know. I really don't know. I feel really sad. I hope this won't last long. and hope everything'll be alright.

Thiz iz zit!

eto na yun oh! COLLEGE!

OHMYYY.. actually, early last yr. I wanna graduate already, maybe I thought it would be easier, college would be easy, and also because i wasn't enjoying the first quarter of my senior year. but then things changed. suddenly, i felt like Chong hua's my second home already. and i would be totally different in college. I'm scared of getting out of my comfort zone. But, as they say everyone must move on.

sooo, MOVING ON. I took accountancy. @@ HAHA! Help me God.

Im looking forward to new beginning, a chance to start a new life. I know the decision I make in college will affect my future. So, i'll really be careful in making those decisions. of course it wont be easy. But with God's guidance, everything will be alright. :) I'll just have to do my best. :)

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TAMAD. ciao!

Clever response. Genius!

VERY INTERESTING CONVERSATION (Pls read til the end :)) ENJOY!!

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to ...his Class on the Problem Science has

with GOD, the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . .
...

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you Believe in GOD ?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Professor: Is GOD Good ?

Student : Sure.

Professor: Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?

Student : Yes.

Professor: My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.

Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill.

But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent )

Professor: You can't answer, can you ? Let's start again, Young Fella.

Is GOD Good?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Is Satan good ?

Student : No.

Professor: Where does Satan come from ?

Student : From . . . GOD . . .

Professor: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn't it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?

Student : Yes.

Professor: So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer)

Professor: Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness?

All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who Created them ?

(Student had no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you.

Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?

Student : No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?

Student : No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD?

Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Professor: Yet you still Believe in HIM?

Student : Yes.

Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol,

Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.

Professor: Yes,Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student : No, sir. There isn't.

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat,

a Little Heat or No Heat.

But we don't have anything called Cold.

We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.

There is no such thing as Cold.

Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.

We cannot Measure Cold.

Heat is Energy.

Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

(There was Pin-Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?

Student : You're wrong again, sir.

Darkness is the Absence of Something

You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light . . .

But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it?

In reality, Darkness isn't.

If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?

Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.

You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD.

You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure.

Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought.

It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.

To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that

Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.

Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it.

Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument was going )

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and

Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor,

Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?

Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The Class was in Uproar )

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's Brain?

(The Class broke out into Laughter )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? . . .

No one appears to have done so.

So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol,

Science says that You have No Brain, sir.

With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?

(The Room was Silent. The Professor stared at the Student, his face unfathomable)

Professor: I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.

Student : That is it sir . . . Exactly !

The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.

That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.

*************************************************

I believe you have enjoyed the conversation, and if so,

you'll probably want your friends/colleagues to enjoy the same. Won't you?

Forward them to increase their knowledge, or FAITH.

That student was Albert Einstein. :)

bespren! :))

bespren! :))

Answer here

And so I thought.

hayy.. kelangan ko lng isulat ang blog na to para mailabas ko ang sama ng loob ko..:)

okaay.. I think im fine. I act okay.. im OKAY. yan lage kong sinasbi. peroo.. bkit nabbother ako? bkit? hayy.. yesterday.. macrch 29 2010.

phone call ..

we talked about the problem. and soo..

He said " gusto man kita, pero MAS gusto ko siya "

I said "OK"

and yeaa. I said. BYE.

hayy. after that. I said to myself i`ll be fine. sure i`ll be fine. im a strong girl. I`ll be okay.

yeah. and then he ask me if I still wanted to see him. and I said no.. " ayawwww " that the exact word i said..

It really hurt.I mean REALLY.

choosing someone over you is really a bad thing.

And to think that that girl is not even around. she`s somewhere in LUZON. We are in Mindanao. wow! he must be really in love with that girl. sooo, i didn`t say a thing. I just let go.. its really hard when there`s this "othergirl" . at first I thought that he doesnt have feelings for her anymore. because we are really happy together. All i thought is we're okay already. but that's just what i thought... :|

He still text her, not everyday, but every now and then. FACEBOOK. wall-to-wall. And to think that I CAN READ IT. makes me feel that he is insensitive. YEA. but thats fine. what can I do. its all done. its OVER. :) even though ndi kame. (alam neo ung feeling na kahit di kyo nasasktan ka). and soooo.. I didnt ask him already. I didnt ask why. i just said OK. what's the hardest thing about this is to think na. IKAW ung andito .. IKAW ung nakakasama nea. IKAW ung anjan para sknya. IKAW UN. IKAW. PERO, pinili nea pa ung wala. mas pinili nea pa ung WALA DITO. UNG NASA MALAYO. un ung pinakasamakit e. :( super sakit. as in super sakit.. nalulungkot ako pag naiisip ko un.. super. umasa ako kse akala ko ok na kame.. wala nang problema sa family namen.. suportado kame ng lahat. except my FRIEND. (she said masasaktan lng daw ako kay _____ ). and guess what .. tama sya. that's why when I told her about what happened, she just said "see? good. SABI KO NA SAYO, di ka nakikinig" woa! kaya lang naman ako ndi nakinig kase mas nakinig ako sa sinasabi ng utak ko.. na to give it a try.. PERO, wala e. di tlga.. pero di ko nmn un pinagsisihan sabi nga nila. NO REGRETS, JUST LOVE.

hay. kala ko lang pala ang lhat.IT REALLY IS PAINFUL.

akala ko.. akala ko lng pala..sana, di nalang ako nafall.. e in the first place, di ko nmn binalak to e. ndi tlga.. peroo..hayy.. His parents were the best! they're just the best. ang bait super. :) as in.. that's really one of the reasons why I liked him. :) his family.. his siblings. ooh i just love them. i really do. :) his mom, is really great! a great cook too! ang galing. super sarap magluto, and his dad, ang bait.. and cutee..... kaya its kinda hard for me to let go.. kase kht sandali lang kame nagkasama nakakamiss paren.. lalo na ung little brother nea. :(nobyo ko un.. HAHA! noby ko DAW! i`ll really miss them.

hay.. this thing.. this thing that's happening.. really bothers me. as in. grabe.. :) but i know i`ll be okay, maybe not today.. maybe not tomorrow. but soon. :) I just have to PRAY.

they say para daw di ako mahurt. I just have to keep myself busy, dapat di ko na isipin para di na ako masaktan.. sabi din ng friends ko.. dpt daw be strong... they really do their best to comfort me. sabi nila magsisisi daw sya, they say his miserable na daw. BUT I said no, sana maging masaya sya. sana masaya sya sa decision nya. :) lets just take away the bitterness. lets all be happy db?

i know kaya ko to.. :D I just need God's guidance. :) He Is my refuge. I always come running back to Him when everything falls apart. He is my strong foundation.. I`ll be nothing with out

Him. probably im crying out loud now if He is not with me. Yes, there are many reasons to cry now, but there are thousands of reasons to smile and laugh. :) Amen? :)

UPSET?

I understand that I make mistakes. OFTEN. but does that mean that i`m not capable of doing the right thing next time?

I know i`ve made many wrong turns before. I did alot of bad stuffs. there`s alway ups and downs in everyone`s life right? maybe I was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. or what. but I just dont know what to do now.

IM SCEWRED UP.. im in a major major disaster,many things are happening beyond my control. but i know that these are just God`s trial/test to me.. but sometimes, i just wanna give up. i sometimes think that its too much. but what keeps me up and fighting? it`s the love of The Lord.

In times when i`m troubled. when i don`t know what to do? when everyone turns their back from me? it`s always God who keep on guiding me. For i know that He has plans to prosper me.. and not to harm me. I always hold on to His promises. and I know that He has plans for me.