This is soooo..

LIFE IS A CONSTANT CHANGE! 

 It's been super crazy lately. I... I don't know what is happening anymore. As in LOST! @@ Second semester na, there are so many changes. Super busy na nga ngayon e.  And I forgot to blog about being a RAINBOW GIRL nga e! YAY! (but I’ll post a photo of me during the installation) OKAAAY! Going back to the topic, everything is a mess! I am a big mess. I just have to put myself together! I have to be really strong.

Here's the sitch,  I cant tell you the whole story here, but .. 

Ang daming kong problema lately e. @@ Ayaw ko naman mag drama dito but, everything is falling apart e! @@ I am so bothered. @@ Just the other night, I received a threat. Somebody texted me and the used my middle name to identify if it is really me. This is so.. @@ That anonymous sender said a lot of things about my life and all, and he also said that he knows me blab la bla.. @@ As in. @@ I felt a bit scared baaaa. But, I am not shaken naman. I can handle it. PEROOO!! @@ Wala lng, I am just super bothered. I also told my mom. She said that I shouldn’t mind it nalang daw. “Mga walang magawa sa buhay” my mom said. Haaayyy. I never mentioned it to my dad. @@ I just don’t feel like it’s the time to say it. What really hit me the most is that, when the anon said “More surprises on your birthday. HAHA.” And I was like. WTF! How did this guy know that it is almost my birthday. @@ Senyoooor! @@ Ughh, it comes in my mind every now and then, but I just let it pass. I don’t want to think about it that much. It’s just that, UGH! I can’t explain this feeling. Knowing that there’s nobody beside you to help you or comfort you. I just feel soooooo isolated from everyone right now. I feel like people see me as a strong happy kid, and I don’t face problems. But inside, I am falling apart. Where are they when I need them the most? The only one that keeps me up is God. Even if I had been always busy, even if I sometimes don’t have time for him anymore, he is always there. And at this point in my life, I turn to him. He is my refuge and strength. I just feel that I need to pour my heart out.

WHEW! Its just soooo crazy. Im super tired. @@ As in physically, mentally, and emotionally. @@ STRESSED! My grades aren't working with me. I am bulaw. @@ I just have to focus more. College is crazy! PLUS my crazy life equals

A CRAZY ME! @@ 

Ewan, ang gulo ng utak ko ngayon. Mag 18 na pala ako. :) Hay, Expect ko nang di nanaman ako magiging masaya sa birthday ko. :) As always! I also think that I deserve this naman e. HAYY! I just have to put myself back together and be strong, even just for six months. I have to stay strong. 

I HAVE TO... 

Whew! :'(