I’m no writer, I’m just plain me, scribbling all my feelings away.
As I lie awake tonight, I think of how we ended up like this.
All those nights we sealed with sweet notes now seemed to be so far away.
I ask myself, “How did this happen?”
Then I go back to missing the way those eyes looked like, before anything ever did happen.
Gone are those moments when you were still sweet and gentle.
Gone are those days when you still look me in the eye and say those three words like you mean it.
Gone are those days when you still cared.
And now all that’s left are memories and stories that I’ll forever keep in my back pocket.
I really thought we’d surpass all the challenges.
And that we will come out strong.
But something along the way changed.
Maybe fate took a little turn to I don’t know where.
And maybe somewhere along those twist and turns, I lost you.
You, the one I cared about the most.
Now you seemed to no longer look at me the way you did before.
I know it was something I’ve done.
I know its was all my fault.
If I can only undo the things I did, I would.
But I don’t blame you for choosing to let go.
And now I lie awake tonight, thinking of ways to fight.
Only to find out there’s nothing left to fight for.
And there are broken things, that cant be repaired.
Things that no longer work the way it used to no matter how good it did before.
No matter how hard you try to revive it.
It just cant be done.
Like a broken heart that stopped beating.
Like a shattered glass that can never be put back together.
This is us now.
Then I realized that maybe, just maybe,
It’s easier to let go of something that’s been hurting you for so long.
Than to keep holding on to it and keep hurting.
Sometimes, the best way is to just let go and let it be.
But to me I say this is not an option.
